my therapy thing entry

--  things that i do the therapy thing for:

-  Neurotic Depression due to Schizotypal Personality disorder

-  Schizotypal Personality Disorder [which is most closely kin to ASD/Asperger's]

-  Traumatic Stress Depression

-  the combination of Neurotic Depression due to Schizotypal Personality Disorder and Traumatic Stress Depression

--  things that i need for therapy {i'm not sharing this list nor any other such list and passive-aggressively [or whatever] asking for anyone to get these things for me.  i am sharing because some people might like to know and because some people might get ideas for themeselves or others.}:

-  https://www.amazon.com/Oxford-Stone-Notebook-Sheets-161641/dp/B07C32J5TM

-  https://www.amazon.com/uni-ball-Rollerball-Handwriting-Resistant-Ballpoint/dp/B016BHQ2NO

-  https://www.amazon.com/Honsheng-Surfing-Boy-Paperweight-Decorations/dp/B0BHKJKN5D

-  https://www.amazon.com/Hide-Drink-Leather-Juggling-Balls/dp/B08LZ58C5T

-  https://www.amazon.com/Hide-Drink-Juggling-Equipment-Professional/dp/B07PDSMZSZ

-  https://www.amazon.com/Soho-Urban-Artist-Pochade-Easel/dp/B07DNG6CZP

https://www.amazon.com/Soho-Urban-Artist-Aluminum-Pochade/dp/B07GH49ZXF

-  https://www.amazon.com/Columbian-Invitation-Envelopes-Inches-CO198/dp/B000083E4Z and https://www.amazon.com/Bright-White-Smooth-Paper-Sheets/dp/B01AFH8KFE

-  https://www.amazon.com/Soho-Urban-Artist-Painting-Lightweight/dp/B08V23KPKH

https://www.amazon.com/Mehron-Makeup-Fantasy-Cream-Essential/dp/B0BBSGPCF6

https://www.amazon.com/Griffin-Travel-Shine-Kit-Applicators/dp/B007SI6BKK

https://www.amazon.com/Griffin-Shoe-Care-Horsehair-Applicator/dp/B007SI6BFA

https://www.amazon.com/Amazon-Basics-Brushes-Acrylic-Watercolor/dp/B0C7YTQMRM

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Kajal-Liner-Pencil-Black/dp/B006LXD872

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-ColorStay-Longwear-Enamel-Blackjack/dp/B00LUD0CFY

https://www.amazon.com/Polish-Lustrous-Resistant-Longwear-Formula/dp/B003HLQVNE [for the Red Thumb thing]

https://www.amazon.com/Polish-Lustrous-Resistant-Longwear-Formula/dp/B003HLQVNE [for the Purple Pinky thing]

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-ColorStay-Longwear-Enamel-Beginners/dp/B00L8CTA3C

https://www.amazon.com/Polish-Lustrous-Resistant-Longwear-Formula/dp/B003HLQVNE

https://www.amazon.com/REVLON-Colorstay-Enamel-Fluid-Ounce/dp/B006PANZCY

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Starter-Brush-Kit-Premium/dp/B0043VW55K

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-ColorStay-Ultimate-Lipstick-Supermodel/dp/B009X9ZR02

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Lustrous-Luscious-Mattes-Lipstick/dp/B07XTVS2HM

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Colorstay-Shadow-342-Sultry-Smoke/dp/B001LFI2DU

https://www.amazon.com/ColorStay-Eyeshadow-Dual-Ended-Applicator-Longwear/dp/B006OZEZME

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-Luxurious-Color-Crayon-0-035-Ounce/dp/B0048IHFR6

https://www.amazon.com/Revlon-22800050-ColorStay-Shadow-Volcanic/dp/B009C85NSU

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-3000S-10-Squirrel-Risslon/dp/B004BNEU1M

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-3000S-10-Squirrel-Risslon/dp/B004BNEU1M

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-3000S-10-Squirrel-Risslon/dp/B004BNEU1M

https://www.amazon.com/Gillette-Gil-SBR-Shaving-Brush/dp/B0075JNWXG

https://www.amazon.com/Wilkinson-Sword-Classic-Shaving-Brush/dp/B07J6ZG678

https://www.amazon.com/Coltree-Paint-Brushes-Variety-Angle/dp/B08BHR7J9N

https://www.amazon.com/Coltree-Detailing-Conditioner-Brushfor-Dashboard/dp/B096RQNK4C

https://www.amazon.com/Winsor-Newton-Artists-Charcoal-Pkg-Hard/dp/B004O7HPHG

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-Silverwhite-Taklon-Watercolor/dp/B01BVUGC2M

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-Silverwhite-Taklon-Watercolor/dp/B01BVUGBZA

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-Limited-SW-15505-Silverwhite/dp/B008BRY6E0?ref_=ast_sto_dp

https://www.amazon.com/Black-Velvet%C2%AE-Beginning-Round-Rounds/dp/B099KTD1ZP

https://www.amazon.com/Silver-Brush-WC-3000S-Velvet-Watercolor/dp/B005JJVF2Y

GooseandClover Broadcasting - Where Funding Goes

absolutely none of the funds generated by viewer investment, and/nor affiliation or partnership with broadcasting platform, and/nor sponsorship goes toward broadcaster's income.  {the only exception is the broadcaster taking advantage of music and video streaming service subscriptions offline.}

all funding goes directly into the production of the show [which will run for an hour and a half per week]; this show is a hobby, not employment.

Production Expenses:

--  music

-  purchases

-  Spotify Premium subscription [to help ensure that appropriate royalties go to @Halocene for my use of Halocene Stream Music, and so that i can have the playlist available to play from a device rather than clogging up my bandwidth] = $16.99/mo

-  tier 3 subscription to Halocene's Twitch channel and the occasional "kick over"

-  Amazon Music Unlimited subscription [for use along with purchased music in the Amazon Music Twitch Extension] = $200/year

--  moderators [current moderators are not obligated to attend, let alone do any moderating, and are welcome and trusted to]

-  tier three subscriptions to their channels [currently, three] and "kick over"

--  philanthropic interests

--  props and activities

--  various channels available on Prime Video [for watch parties; these will be infrequent because they will run over an hour and a half]

-  Paramount+/Showtime = $11.99/mo

-  Max = $15.99/mo

-  miscellaneous = upwards of $23.97/mo

--  digital studio subscription

-  Wirecast = $799 [one time] + $299/year

new Windows computer setup - first steps

 {between the video and this rundown, i figure i've covered everything.  if something comes up, during my initial setup of my Hyundai HTN4020MPC02, i'll update this to include it.}

video that goes along with this:  here

i will "shout out" NCH Software at the top, here.

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new laptop in question:  Hyundai HyBook HT14CCIC44EGP

--  128GB embedded [stock] storage and 4GB embedded RAM
--  "expansion" module for a "B-keyed" M.2 AHCI-controlled 2240/2242 SSD card
--  TF [aka microSD] chip port for ReadyBoost support; max 256GB

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Follow this guide, and do these things [DISM before SFC, though]

--  upon completion of the driver update in the setup
--  every time Windows Updates
--  directly after running a program like BleachBit
--  directly after installing critical software [like antivirus and other security software]
--  often, if you have your Pagefile [aka "Virtual Memory"] on default settings
-  especially directly after defragmenting [which you shouldn't need to do if you've moved pagefile off of C:\ ]
-  including directly after every time you install a video game onto the same partition as your Pagefile through a client like Steam [and reverify your install with your Steam-esque client directly after doing these things]
--  directly after every time you've "forced" a scan with your antivirus and other security software [unless you're using ClamWin (portable)]

software downloaded [just in case] and not used for setup:

GParted, Snappy Driver Installer-Origin

other software:

The Gimp [portable] , Inkscape [portable] , Abiword [portable] , ImageGlass , Slimjet [portable] , 

software used for setup:

7-Zip [portable] , Macrorit Disk Partition Expert [portable] , Revo Uninstaller [portable (alternative)]*** , DriverPack [Snappy Driver Installer]* , Portable Update [PortUP]** , Warp Drive by NCH , Netstalker , ClamWin (portable) , Equalizer APO , 

--  *Prefer the Offline Installation Package, and you will
-  you will need Visual C++ Runtime and Transmission Torrent Client
-  the only two problems that i had with the DriverPack [installable] version:
1-  it "updated" the Everest [embedded] audio controller driver to an incompatible version [had to go into Device Information in Computer Management and "roll the driver back"].
2-  i had to uninstall the Visual C++ that was installed for DriverPack in order to install appropriate Visual Studio runtime for Intel Driver & Support Assistant.

--  **Disable Automatic Microsoft Updates
-  before updating Windows [and before the first DISM/SFC check] run the drivers installer again, in case only prerequisites for up-to-date drivers have been installed {this is a failing of Windows Update; often enough, it will install prerequisites to up-to-date [because those are the next updates] and there will be lag time between installing those and installing more, let alone and installing up-to-date; also, Windows Update will fail installations if the DISM/SFC considerations are corrupt.}, over and over until it stops saying you need updates.
-  follow the DISM/SFC guide upon completion of running PortUp.

--  ***Using Revo Uninstaller, instead of doing this trough Windows, gives you the option to delete junk files left behind that Windows disregards.  You need to be careful when doing this, and super careful when using a program like BleachBit, though; another drawback is that you cannot Disable Windows Features through Revo Uninstaller nor uninstall programs that have been installed through Windows Store.

software uninstalled for setup:

Microsoft Office [with Revo Uninstaller], Microsoft Office [through Microsoft Store] , Email [default; through Microsoft Store], Messaging [through Microsoft Store], Mobile Plans [through Microsoft Store], Photos [through Microsoft Store], OneDrive [through Microsoft Store; has been discontinued anyway], OneNote [through Microsoft Store], Microsoft Whiteboard [through Microsoft Store], Groove Music [through Microsoft Store], Windows Media Player [through Control Panel/Programs and Features/Windows Features], 

{by "through Microsoft Store" i mean that i found the appropriate shortcut in the Start Menu, right-clicked it, and selected "Uninstall"; also, i Taskbar-Searched for "start menu", opened the Start Menu folder, and had to delete the Windows Media Player shortcut from the Programs folder there.}

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very first setup steps:

1-

-- look up how much RAM is installed, multiply by 3 and round up to the nearest factor of 5; write this figure down

-- open Computer Management, select Disk Management, verify if Recovery Partition can be removed from here or not [do not remove it, yet; just right-click and look for the Delete or Remove option].

-- Create Recovery Media; if Recovery Partition may be removed as part of this wizard, do so here.

- if the Recovery Partition cannot be removed by either of the above methods, use Macrorit Disk Partition Expert [free version; portable version, and this version must be on the computer (Desktop is the easiest place to run it from)]

-- shrink C:\ ["Windows Partition"] down to accommodate the written down figure At The Back [far right on the bar] of the drive

- once the Recovery Partition is removed, this step can be done with either Disk Management in Windows Computer Management or with Macrorit Disk Partition Expert

might as well use the same program for all of these steps: remove Recovery Partition, shrink "Windows Partition", create new partition to designate for Pagefile

-- create new partition at back of drive to designate for Pagefile

- have this new partition formatted to NTFS [or whichever file format Windows is installed on]

-- open Advanced Systems Settings, select "Settings" button under Performance, Select "Advanced" tab, switch from "Program" to "Background services"

-- open Advanced Systems Settings, select "Settings" button under Performance, Select "Advanced" tab, select "Change" button under Virtual Memory

- migrate "pagefile" off of C:\ directory ["Windows partition“] by selecting new partition in list, selecting Custom, settings should be Minimum = installed RAM and Maximum = three times installed RAM

the remainder [having rounded up] is "breathing room"; "A dog can stand up in the crate, and that doesn't mean that the crate isn't too small."

windows has a tendency to get its version of claustrophobic and/or other conditions, when it comes to Virtual Memory and, "A space [floor-to-ceiling] that has the exact measurements as the bookshelf that you're trying to put into it doesn't mean there's enough room to get the bookshelf through the door and then swing it into place."

- soon as the pagefile is Set in the new partition, select C:\ in the menu, Unselect "Allow Windows to manage … automatically …", then select No Pagefile and Set

{most people leave the Pagefile how it comes, they don't even know about these settings, and they just load their hard drive with a lot of software [a lot of which are resource hogs; resources include pre-fetch from pagefile].

{the more software that is installed onto the pagefile partition, the more scattered the pagefile needs to be to run [hence having to Defragment, ever] and the more your programs struggle to run, especially since most of today's software runs in Roaming Files and not in Program Files.

{also, the more full the pagefile partition is of other things, the less pagefile can actually be there, and the more your software struggles to run; pagefile is a shared resource, and it is used in the background [a reason why switching from Foremost Graphical Representation ("Programs") to Background services is a great idea.}

2-

-- download RevoUninstaller [portable version]

- go into Control Panel, switch to Large [or Small] Icons, check Programs and Features, open "Turn Windows features on or off"

there should be only so many things to turn off, here.

there is a codec pack called Combined Community Codec Pack [CCCP] which can be installed to run any media file format in Windows Media Player. alternatively, there is a program called Media Player Classic-Home Cinema [i mistakenly called this MHC in the video, and it is MPC-HC] and you can uninstall Windows Media Player because it will be unnecessary.

-- create new folder on desktop

- go into C:\ directory in Windows Explorer, open Windows and locate Fonts [DO NOT open Fonts, yet], right-click Fonts in C:\Windows and copy into the new folder on the desktop

-- if you would like to uninstall Microsoft Office, open RevoUninstaller and uninstall Microsoft Office, here; with this program, and not through Windows Control Panel, you'll be able to delete junk leftovers

- while RevoUninstaller is open, uninstall everything that you don't want

{not shown in video because i didn't know, at the time, that this is a thing:

{Microsoft Office is pre\-installed twice: once the traditional way [uninstalled with Revo Uninstaller] and once through Microsoft Store, so you will also need to go through the start menu, right-click the Office icon and select Uninstall.}

- delete leftover files [upon completion of uninstall, hit "Scan" for leftover files]

there are things that you will want to keep which share certain files with what you want to lose, so you need to learn what potentially shares what and you need to be careful; once you get the hang of it, you will be able to feel out when you should choose Safe Scan, Moderate Scan or Advanced Scan.

3- before you uninstall Office 365, open C:\Windows and locate [do not open] Fonts; right-click the Fonts item in the Windows folder, select "Copy" and paste it onto the desktop, temporarily.

-- remove the Composite Fonts into their own folder

4- to back up system-provided wallpapers, open C:\Windows and search for each .jpg, .jpeg, .bmp, .gif, .webp, and .png .

-- best to select all, in each case, and copy everything into a folder on the desktop; once that's done, open that folder, right-click a blank area in the folder, hover over View, select either Details or Large Icons.

- if Details is selected, can click on the "Size" tab in the folder and sort from Largest to Smallest. it's pretty easy to tell the delineation from wallpapers to miscellaneous.

GooseandClover's "Setup"

{work in progress [post and components alike]; i have only so much time to work on these posts--and only so large a budget--at a time, at the moment.  please, bear with me.}

{also, in case you're interested:  how i set up my new Windows computers, since having "crash-coursed" in preventative maintenance in the Navy.}

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--  fiber optic underground around town to the service box.
--  Cox-installed coaxial from the service box into the building.
{-  Amphenol TFC-T10 4001538 Series 6 [RG6] coaxial wire.}
--  Holland Electronics F-81 coupler between Cox-installed wire and Ground Loop Isolator.

--  Holland Electronics Ground Loop Isolator plus Surge Protector.
--  Amphenol ABS313H three-way splitter [one off-set port, designated for broadcasting] with Surge Protection.
--  Amphenol TFC-T10 4001538 {Series 6, to start; Series 11 when i get a Klein Tools Coaxial toolbox kit} wire from splitter to modem.
--  NETGEAR Nighthawk CM1100.
-  LogiLink CQ8023S Cat8e wire [supports 1000MHz].

i will likely start with my desk-bound laptop connected directly to the modem, and will use it for a hotspot/router thing until i've gotten my Hyundai HTN4020MPC02 sorted.

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Designated "Gateway" [Palisade-inspired theme]

-- Hyundai mini-PC [model HTN4020MPC02].
-  128GB embedded [aka eMMC] storage.
-  2TB Seagate SkyhawkMini HDD ["expansion" storage].

-  maybe, Teamgroup MS30 "B+M-keyed" SSD card ["expansion" storage].

-  4GB embedded RAM.

-  128GB Tridenite TF/microSD chip ["expansion" part].
-  comes with Windows 10 Professional; will switch to linux when ready to.
-  Sanyo DP19647 television {"cursed" [780p screen, and plastic molding covers a nice crop-bordering of it]. 😔}.

Desk-bound Laptop [no theme]

--  HP15 [model 15-1272wm].
-  1TB Seagate FireCuda SSHD.
-  8GB HyperX Impact RAM.
-  Windows 10 Ultimate.
-  64GB Verbatim Store-n-Stay "nano" usb key [for making use of Windows's ReadyBoost].

Roaming Laptop [Tiburón-inspired Theme]

--  Hyundai HyBook [model HT14CCIC44EGP].

-  128GB embedded [aka eMMC] storage.
-  maybe, Teamgroup MS30 "B+M-keyed" SSD card ["expansion" storage].
-  4GB embedded RAM.
-  Windows 10 Professional.
-  256GB Tridenite TF/microSDXC chip ["expansion" part].

GooseandClover currently banned from:

     Wall Of Honesty [on GooseandClover's part].  only people with any integrity would understand.  {incomplete list because i will not search through 500,000 or so channels just to list what little trash here.}

myself being outnumbered by adult-aged children does not make me any less of a victim of theirs, and does not make me "the 'common denominator'" and the problem; their choice to be children, to decide that they're "'better' than" me because i'm neither drunk nor druggy [nor pro-inaccountability], is the common denominator and the problem.

@ferocia , @icyrayne , @imkatt , @cuurly_fries , @unumz , @aimzatchu , @ayytrae , @solar_plexuss , @blondiesea , @cahlaflour , @bittie , @bloodyfaster , @pintsizetiger , @smexi , @negaoryx , @camms , @sleepyheadd , @chrispygameplay , @katskratchh , @rottenpapi , @koolysmiley , @iihezzy , @sarcasmalways , @missmyranda , @inviicta , *@vennabean , @nerdynetty , @lucy , @luxiegames , @2bratty , @chillbobagginz , @ashleyroboto , @aliythia , @thatnerdviolet , @podgie , @jasonsulli , @sayheyrocco , @thugkage , @sariaslays , @partbunny , @jayskott , @briziana , @xo_damage , @mischacrossing , @pamylz , @demitrios , @whatifjulia , @dayoshi , @ldydrgnslyr , @ainevixen , @milobentley , @kiki , @madietaylar , @arieljadelive , @sashagrey , @fluffylives , @watchvenn , @tndncy , @vana , @jambo , @aicute , @littlesiha , @astroanie , @annikrevice , @danicarockwood , @skinnedteen , @xspiritwolfx_ , @kirachats , @motherrmoon , @louiseyhannah , @360chrism , @supersleepyt , @finamenon , @teawithmandy , @ligerzero_gaming , @nicholegoodnight , @narwhaljp , @tipsterlive , @mortuarydarling , @gh0starcade , @saiphe , @sincerelylyn , @mcroft07 , @lowco , @oryen , @mystickittenn , @katgunn , @carla , @blizz , @loserfruit [aptly chosen handle] , @sleepyheadd , @linksgroupie , @fiamma , @happykrakenx , @failish , @deadlynaya , @tiddly , @xocheergurlox , @xxbrandy , @bbjess , @saira , 

* = legitimate Ban for legitimate reason

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unbanned from these channels, just to be rebanned on the inside of 24 hours [bait-n-switch bullying]:

30May2021 - @lil_lexi

18July2021 - @sirkatelyn

GooseandClover Broadcasting's "Glossary"

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "panhandling" to mean contribution-based entertainment.

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "Bigotry" to mean "Employment of a double-standard which effectively exempts only the bigot or crowd of bigots from the malicious consequences of pre-defined behaviour, along with the bigot(s) assumption of superiority over another."

-  Example:  if it is ok for a broadcaster [regardless sexual preference and regardless gender, non-gender, etc.] to express misogynistic ideals and behave in a chauvinistic way, then it should be ok for everyone present to, and not just a pre-defined group of people.

-  Example:  if it is not ok for a man, because of the stigma of sexual violence which is attached to the XY Chomosome [a stigma from which a pre-defined group of people is Commonly exempt], to work with women in the Atelier Industry, then--because of the Objective risk of sexual violence--it should not be ok for anyone to.

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "Professionalism" to mean "The toughtful approach to and reverencial follow-through with the task at hand, including the expression of respect of the host's/client's wishes and sensibilities."

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "Violence" to mean "Any act which violates."

-  examples are Lynching, Malicious Manipulation--including "womanizing", put in quotes because there is not a gender-neutral/sexuality-neutral umbrella term--and Expression Of Bigotry [including {not interchangeable, here} "sexism", "chauvinism" and "misogyny"].

-- GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "lynching" to be "The public spectacle ["parade"] whilch preambles crowd-driven murder."

-  in most cases, GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "murder" to be Character Assassination, which has [historically] been the goal of lynching.

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "sexism" to mean "The belief that any given gender is superior to any other gender, non-gender, combination of genders, etc."

-  GooseandClover Broadcasting defines "feminism" to mean "The assertion that feminine people are not inferior from nor less capable than anyone."

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting distinguishes "chauvinism" from "sexism" by behaviour, where "sexism" is a philosophy.

--  GooseandClover Broadcasting distinguishes "misogyny" from "sexism" by lifestyle, where "sexism" is philosophy and "chauvinism" is distinguished by behaviour less the misogynistic lifestyle.

Contributions

          Current Events:

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if anyone needs a computer [including laptops], or parts or anything, XBit, LLC. is a good place to start looking around.

if you would like to help chip into a movie's production, Stutter might still need some help.

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"Glossary Definition"s:

--  "panhandling" is contribution-based entertainment.  historically, most commonly, Evangelists ["Revivals"], Grifters ["Medicine Shows"], Romani and other caravan-communities [most of which are mistakenly called "gypsies"] would hold a pan out by its handle and "good will" contributions [generated by affect of each show or (more often) by the ambition of a given spectator] would be placed into the pan.

--  "Community-driven" does not mean that any contributor has any Right to make demands nor employ extorcion for sake of steering administrative decisions--including in studio/"setup" component selection.  Malicious Manipulation is bullying, and GooseandClover Broadcasting has a Zero-Tolerance Policy toward bullying.

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contributions by only electronic gift cards will be accepted; send to gooseandclover@gmx.com , please.

Dissemination Chart

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