29 October 2022

you're not children? then i'm not an adult, nor a child, so ... idk what i am. :)

 listen:


all you children think that my life is shit and yours is good, that you're all superior to me in every way and that i should come around to your way of thinking and to your way of behaving?


1- i don't have any woman in my life who's aborting my children to get out of her own accountability.


2- i don't have any woman in my life who's drawing child support from me, especially no woman who is because it's an easy passive income.


3- i don't have anyone in my life who claims to be a friend to me, a friend of mine, and hopes to manipulate me nor gets angered by my choice to not "come around".


4- i don't fuck my budget up because i'm more focused on buying cigarettes, booze, marijuana, meth, ... any poison. ...


5- i actually am generous and kind; i don't have to pretend to be.


6- i know how easy women happen to be, just how easily i can get into a woman's panties, and it terrifies me.


7- i am the kind of person who will have never done anything that i cannot live with.


8- i don't blame my diagnoses for anything, i blame what i've gained from having them, and what i've gained from having them is wisdom.


9- i don't drink from the popular punch bowl.


10- i don't drink from the popular punch bowl because of anything like "fear of missing out".


11- i don't want to be a child in adult age who's pretending well enough to be an adult that i believe that i am.


12- i am not a superficial person.


13- i don't paint others to distract from my true colours.


my life is shit, and yours is great?


fine. :)


i'm not a man? at least, not a good man?


ok. :)


at least i'm good people.

my therapy thing entry

--  things that i do the therapy thing for: -  Neurotic Depression due to Schizotypal Personality disorder -  Schizotypal Personality Disord...