i have Schizotypal Personality Disorder ...

... and i happen to be "well-spoken".

... so it is very, very difficult for me to convey in words [whether written or spoken] what i would like for people to understand, if that makes sense.

for instance, i'm sitting here, staring at a photo of a "grand gesture" from boyfriend to girlfriend for the girlfriend's birthday, and i'm shaking my head and wishing that girls aren't so blind.

EVERY guy, even those who truly are creeps [even those who don't get away with being true creeps], knows what women want.  we know because girls tell us--all day, every day--especially in this day of instant sharing to the public masses.

those guys who are successful with women, especially those who fill the "grand gesture" demand not for the girl's sake but for their own sake, make [say] my social life that much more difficult EVERY DAY, ALL DAY.

if only because they extend "grand gesture"s so often that the value of a grand gesture from me ... well, a grand gesture from me has no value, and i'm told that i have no value, and it's spread around that i am undesireable.

... or guys extend "grand gesture" after "grand gesture" after "grand gesture", get in the girls' panties with each, and then the guys stop and stop putting the "good man" mask on, and i get punished for it.

... AND i get punished for every girl who's been raped or otherwise been mistreated by OTHER MEN looooong before the girl knows i exist.

i mean, why shouldn't i withhold grand gestures until i'm sure of the girl? because other guys just ply 'em out in order to endear themselves as quickly as possible to each girl, and to keep themselves endeared to each girl for as long as the girl puts out [even not talking about sex]?

the first of the three girls who sent me to prison ASKED ME for my opinion, from a man's point of view, as to why her ex-fiance broke their engagement off the week of their wedding.

i was honest, especially because i know that no other dude would be honest unless they're trying to get into her panties, so they wouldn't be honest:  i told her her own story back to her, verbatim.  i told her that he was likely already cheating on her, when they broke up, because that was the only way that he could keep himself from whining about her not spreading her legs for him until after marriage.  i told her that her modesty about pda just around her parents was likely the stresser between them, since he was getting his wick wet elsewhere.  she didn't "treat him like a king", and wouldn't until after they were married, and he got tired of waiting.

THAT is when she decided that i'm undesireable, and she started a quick chain of women punishing me for what OTHER MEN did wrong by them, punishment which culminated in me having to stay in prison for a couple of years because i got fed up and revolted, spoke up for myself.

ask anyone, including Twitch streamers:  i owe everyone everything.  no one owes me anything.  i have no right to speak up for myself, to stand up for myself, and i'm not valueable enough for anyone to speak up on my behalf, to go to bat for me.

"grand gestures" are the way to go, and that's AFTER the girl approves of the boy on a superficial plane.  the "superficial plane" includes storytelling, unfortunately, and i've derailed, so i'll shut up, now.

"uncommon" bigotry on Twitch:

... but, yeah, so ... the LGBTQIA+ community, on Twitch, has a number of bigots in it.

i am a boy [gender affinity] who was born male [biology; XY chromasomes] and who is heterosexual [sexuality]; while this group of the community was leading me to believe that i'm welcome, i chose to hold them to it:

i talked about women the same as Community members were talking about women, i bantered same as Community members were bantering, i treated everyone around me how i would like to be treated because I WELCOME THEM. ...  i was banned, this last week, from two for behaving as if i was welcome, and three more banned me upon the spread of word.

in my mind, they were family; in their minds, i was just a viewer to be tolerated provided i only lurked.

why is it ok for dark people and for people belonging to the LGBTQIA+ [who, as a whole, don't include me in "+", by the way] to be hypocrites.

why is racism inward toward white people and is bigotry inward from LGBT+ ok?

clean up your own back yards, before you complain about other people's trash.

testing the webhook, yet again. ...

i'm just a little black rain cloud hovering over the honey tree

just my periodic, convoluted rambling.

a lot of people will likely be angry with me for this post, and i don't care.

i'm not to blame for them choosing to not keep things simple.

i'm not to blame for them "evolving" the English language and for losing their collective identity in favor of their individual images.

LGBT+

the "+" includes "QIA" etc.

the "+", in my book, should also include me.

reasonably, "binary" should mean that a person who was born male [XY chromasomes], say, identifies as the same gender [in this case, boy] as their biology.

reasonably, "non-binary" should mean that a person who was born female [XX chromasome], say, identifies as the opposite gender [in this case, boy] as their biology.

as hermaphrodites go:  if memory serves, hermaphrodites are born with either XXY or XXXY [never XYY] chromasomes, and there are so few hermaphrodites that they're often excluded from the Rainbow Tribe, too.

as far as "pronouns":  when i was a kid, it was not ok to call someone a "He/She". ...  nowadays, it's appropriate to call someone a "He/She".  what's up with that?"

as for myself:  i was born male [XY chromasomes (He\)], i identify as the same gender as my biology [He\Him or He\He], and i am heterosexual.

the problem is that, i get smacked for just using the "He\Him" pronouns on myself. ...

the Rainbow Tribe is every bit as prejudiced as the vast majority of "non-Rainbow"s. ...  same as i've always, in my 37 years, heard far more racism from the mouths of dark people {i won't call 'em black 'cause that's not the true color of their skin, and i won't call 'em brown 'cause ... well, people are crazy.} than from the mouths of white people, and yet it's white people who get the finger and spotlight all of the time, especially when something like Rodney King's murder and George Floyd's murder.

who cares about dark people murdering white people?  who cares about dark people complaining about racism and yet excluding [forceably, self-entitledly] all other skin colors from the Lives Matter movement?

queer = weird = outlying [by dictionary definition] ... and i haven't the bandwidth for "I" and "A" + anything else that isn't where i fall.

back in the day, again, "queer" was an umbrella term for the whole Rainbow.  now, it's a term that refers to a particular color of the Rainbow.

i was talking with someone, the other night, who discribes theirself as "She\They"--which, as you can see above, i mean as they were born as biologically female, and they don't identify with either gender in particular.  they classify theirself as lesbian, though, and happen to enjoy masculinity as they understand it to be and to look like. ...  in my book--and i'm likely wrong just don't have the bandwidth to be corrected by anyone but this particular person directly--this person [under LGBTQIA+whatever] would fall under the Queer color of the Rainbow.  smack me all you want to; again, i'm not to blame for you choosing to not keep things simple.

until just now, and for 25 years, i was calling the movie To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything! Julie Newmar by the wrong title [Showgirls].

oh well. ...

in the movie, though, is described a keep it simple way to remember who's who in the LGBT world, as it was at the time:

Homosexual [Lesbian, Gay--and "gay" *was* an umbrella term that the males have adopted; 'course, they *had* adopted "queer", as well] and Bi-Sexual are easy.

-  Transvestite:  "When a straight man puts on a dress and gets his sexual kicks."
-  Drag Queen:  "When a gay man has way too much fashion sense for one gender."
-  Transsexual:  "When a man is a woman trapped in a man's body and has the little operation."
-  {i'm adding this, to keep up with the times.}
    --  Transgender (the "T" in LGBT):  "When a man is a woman trapped in a man's body and has not had the little operation."

i am directly quoting the movie, here, so just transpose "man" and "woman" as necessary, instead of making mountains out of mole hills.

i was banned from @KIKI's twitch channel because i have a nephew who is She\Him and who prefers to dress like a girl.  since she identifies as being a boy, and dresses like a girl, he dresses in drag, so [in my book] a He\She who dresses as a woman, at all, is not a Drag Queen because she identifies as a woman and dresses like a woman.

in effort to gain some enlightenment, though, i asked the He\She about it, was told that i need an education--when it would've been very easy to just tell me how she felt about calling herself a Drag Queen, you know, why she calls herself that when she's a girl and so cannot actually be a Drag Queen.

i told @KIKI, loooong before this came up, that i go case-by-case, anyway, and that seemed to have slipped her mind while she was screaming at me, and i couldn't hear what she was saying because my internet is scuffed to begin with and it was constantly cutting out at the time when she was screaming at me, so i couldn't adequately defend myself not knowing what i was defending myself against, so @KIKI banned me because she figures i'm a bigot and yet it is @KIKI and the He\She in question who exercised hate and self-entitlement to justify bullying me.

note, also, that [above] i said that my nibbling dresses in drag, and i did not say that he is a Drag Queen.  point's the same, though:  a Drag Queen is a boy who dresses as a girl [oversimplified to make a point], and a girl who dresses as a girl isn't dressing in drag at all, so that He\She who thinks of herself as a Drag Queen--and who got me banned from @KIKI's Twitch community [which is just as well] is, simply put, a girl who wears dresses.

i am a heterosexual man, and i do happen to watch porn, and one of my favorite scenes is Love For Sale, Chapter 2- Crossdressing [SexArt.com].  i can't say that, in the episode, Amarna Miller is portraying a character who is a transvestite or portraying a character who is Queer [as i've described, in paraphrase, above].  i can say only that i truthfully don't care either way.  i'm likely the only person on Earth who sees neither skin color nor gender, though i would very much like to marry a girl who was born female [and have children with her] someday.

there's too much in my head that i cannot pour out to have the bandwidth to be any more "politically correct" than i already am, and you can take me or leave me as-is.  NO ONE, yet, as "taken" me; i'm 37 years old, and i've only ever been discarded by all but a few during my childhood.

... and i'll shut up, now, for now.

welp, ... the webhooks are finally straightened out some. yay! ...

i'll need to go through, yet, and redo all of the "headers", but i'm glad that Nightbot is no longer intercepting any of them.

my "push" for Twitch Affiliate is going to be a minimal thing, and i'll hopefully have just enough internet appropriateness for my idea.

my idea for my Affiliage 'Push" is a 21st century puppet show, for which i have two puppets already and i'll need a third.

the name of the show is going to be Gone Fishing!, btw.

Title 17 [US Copyright Act] and Fair Use Act vs Digital Media Copyright Act

US Copyright Act

since each Digital Media Copyright Act [DCMA] and Fair Use Act are only Sections under Title 17 [US Copyright Act]:  US Copyright Act, as a whole, governs DMCA and applies "Fair Use" upon DMCA.

Amazon has been working hard, including the provision of their Amazon Music Extension--which can be used in-browser on Mac/PC only, even though it kinda comes up when invoked on a mobile device--to migrate the copyright [or license to hold copyright] of streamed music over to streamers who are playing copies of music that they haven't purchased [purchase implies copyright ownership of the owned copy of the work].

it is not Amazon's fault that Twitch Streamers don't cooperate, that their streamers on Twitch choose to try to cheat the system rather than at least educate themselves on US Copyright Law.

there happen to also be International Branches of Twitch and each country has its own copyright laws.  the only content that US Copyright Law cares about [as far as the DMCA controversy on Twitch] is music that was published And released in the United States.

it is also not Amazon's fault that Record Labels don't educate Themselves on US Copyright Law.  a "Takedown Request" must be signed off on by a Justice or a lesser Judge in representation of US Copyright Law, so the vast majority of the "Takedown Requests" that Amazon has been appeasing are likely unlawful, but what do i know?

at any rate:  any given Twitch Streamer's best bet is to pay for subscription to Amazon Music Unlimited in their country, so that they may make full use of the Amazon Music Extension.  better still, purchase the digital copies of the music that you want to play FROM AMAZON, and play only that and from your Amazon Music Unlimited subscription through your Amazon Music Extension.

lastly, use honey rather than nothing:  give shoutouts to the artists/bands; in those shoutouts, maybe, mention the album that carries the track and the label which produced THAT album [one song might be on several different albums, produced by several Labels, because the ULTIMATE COPYRIGHT HOLDER OF THAT SONG IS THE ARTIST/BAND (says so in US Copyright Act)].

personal preference: ...

 ... i'm not saying that it isn't ok for people sub to and tip @JadeyAnh while she's live, nor saying that it's not ok sub to and tip her while tuned into her streams.

i am saying that it is my preference, all things considered, to do my subbing to and tipping her while she's offline, and i don't care if there are others in chat while she's offline who would give me dirty looks.

the vast majority doesn't care about the "all things considered" beyond they're own entertainment, unfortunately.